5/11/22
I didn’t realize how much I liked riding in the front in the passenger seat with R, until I am riding in the back all the time with Hunter – I miss riding in the front with my husband.
5/15/22
when I don’t sleep from breast-feeding all night, in the morning I feel so delicate like anything might break me. I can’t even talk, I can’t make any sound. even if baby is talking to me, I can’t say anything back. I feel bad about that, but it just hurts to be so exhausted.
sometimes I lose sense of time (i feel this is a side effect of sleep deprivation, as i was never like this before)- like it feels like a long time has passed when i’m doing stuff around the house when it hasn’t really been, and the only way I can measure where I am in the time spectrum / how much time has passed is my breast pumps haven’t stopped yet, and they stop every half hour. so I know it’s been at least within a half hour.
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