3/4/26
something I didn’t feel bad about at the time, but then did later, thinking about it again: R and I had been resting in bed, and then he got up because Hunter needed attention. Then, he suddenly popped his head back in and asked, “did you take the trash out?” and I hadn’t. And he hadn’t, so it was my brother. I heard him thank my brother later for it. But what made me feel regret later was, I was thinking about the super-pleasantly-surprised tone that he asked “did you take the trash out?” and I realized that it was a relief for him to not do it once again, by how happy he sounded. It made me realize that I should do it more- i’ve taken the trash to the dumpster maybe twice in the past 6 months.
But – it also reminded me of the one time, when we were still in the old house, that he changed his stinky shower towel himself. When i was in the bathroom i sniffed the towel and it smelled fresh, and I gasped and ran out and asked him, “did you change your own bathroom towel?” with pretty much the same exact tone he used about the trash today, because it was one time out of the like 60 times I had done it before. So I directly know how he felt today.
Today, was outside almost the whole day because Wi-Fi didn’t work in the trailer, so I had to sit out near the lodge area to work (the actual lodge was locked- they don’t open til 10 am, and that’s 1 pm work time bc my work is in EST) and it was windy, and I guess a lot of pollen and stuff was blowing around cause I felt in the back of my throat, that familiar allergic sensation. Then later, in the evening, the back of my left knee was itchy and when I felt both the backs of my knees, they felt bumpy. I think it was connected – the allergic throat feeling and then my bumpy skin later. I’m glad we’re headed up to Oregon coast, to where it looks like there’s nothing I’m allergic to. we should be there in a month, and will try to stay there through the warm months up to the winter. Even if my skin starts getting bad now, if my theory is right, it should all start to reverse once we get there. This spring and summer on the coast is really gonna prove or disprove everything.
3/6/26
lesson I’m learning for the first time, on the road: just how many times I can wear the same day outfit and night outfit. The first like 6 months of this trip, I was loosely sticking to the same kind of laundry load we had back at the house. Then one day like the other week, as we were on our way to the laundromat yet again, my brother said, “do you ever think about just wearing the same outfit every single day, so you don’t have to do laundry?” and I actually had never really thought of it. I was doing like the same pants for a few days, the same top a few times, but I never hardcore tried it. So I’ve been trying it like the past two weeks, and it’s nice – besides drastically reducing laundry, it also really takes the mental work out of dressing every day. Still changing undies and socks pretty much at the same rate. And can’t do it w Hunter cause he daily rolls on the ground and uses his clothes as his breakfast, lunch and dinner napkin, but I can, and I think R already kind of was.
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