8/27/24
Last night while not doing anything really at that moment (but was by my bed, where he first asked me the question), the thought just occurred to me about R: i might be able to find someone richer, but I don’t think I could find anyone better.
8/28/24
have been basking in the quiet of being by myself in the house early this morning and into the day, when this afternoon, just this wave of thankfulness came over me regarding how grateful I am to have my job. (and my parents to watch baby during the week.) That I can spend most days home to recharge and center when I need to. I’m so thankful for my job and all that it affords me, even though I don’t make like 100K a year or anything, I feel really blessed still. Although I do need money, I also equally need the quiet and alone time to feel like myself.
did a kind of past present future reading, the question on my heart was about health.
8/29/24
“The true spectrum of colors in a rainbow is so vast (up to one million different colors) that we don’t have the language to describe it. If we could see the world in all her radiance, it would leave us speechless.”
– Uju Asika
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today R texted me, “I just played the mega million and powerball, maybe we’ll be rich by Saturday” and i knew he was half joking but in my head my first response was, “it doesn’t matter – i love you and i’m gonna stay forever with you whether we win or not” but that felt too heavy/wordy to text so i just replied, “lol thanks amor”
8/31/24
last night putting baby to sleep, he asked me to tell him a story about “a watermelon that rolls into a vending machine, that has no arms, no legs, and no mouth, but can still talk”
“watch me! i’m a silly boy” – Hunter emphatically just now playing with toy blender
9/1/24
had a pretty painful day today, it hurt every time I started to sweat even a little (we were out and about in the truck, which the AC is broken in it. but the van just started smoking when driven so we couldn’t take that). Skin is pretty bad (mouth area and feet, and also for the past few weeks, on a few fingers so that I touch things weird because I hold out the bad fingers, and try to avoid getting those spots wet cause water hurts it, so i wash my hands weird too, holding away the bad fingers and washing only the good fingers).
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