delicious cake

8/18/24

it was a beautiful anniversary day. We woke up with baby between us in the bed, we went to a seafood festival together which we were surprised to find out was held at a horse racing stadium?, then near end of day, dropped Baby off at Granny’s and had a nice date at Cross Culture Indian restaurant in Haddonfield- R said it was the best bread ever (garlic naan), i liked everything and was really hungry and also realized as we sat down that we went to an Indian restaurant kind of like this for our first date. Then went to drop off his truck for AC repair and went to Walmart together to get water and some other stuff and were both so tired but made nice love before going to bed. skin felt and looked pretty bad the first half of the day, especially during the hottest point at the festival when I started sweating in the sun and getting really irritated and uncomfortable. But by the end of the day, things had calmed down.

8/21/24

for like the past 5+ nights in a row, last thing i think of while falling asleep is imagining how it would feel being barefoot on the beach. i see myself walking, feel on my footsoles the cool damp hardness of the sand that’s right where the waves come up, i imagine wading in and floating faceup in the water, buoyed by the salt and waves and air and light and God, and most of all, i picture doing all of this with nothing hurting at all – how it might feel if i were completely whole. summer feels over now though – it’s been getting down to like 55 degrees these past nights. maybe next year…

for our anniversary, mom got us a whole chocolate cake from Whole Foods that said happy anniversary on it. I couldn’t eat it because it was not gluten-free (or dairy free either probably), so there’s this big box of delicious cake sitting in front of my face every time I open the fridge, and only R can eat it. a few times I really wanted to eat it, but I haven’t. and I’m not going to. Even though it’s not severe (only severe on my feet and neck), I have rashes all over my body, and I’m not gonna risk making them worse just for a few moments’ pleasure.