6/5/24
alarm reminders going off what seems all day, every day now. time passing too quickly; in my head it seems slower than all around me, which seems sped up.
last night was the first time that, instead of just weeping, my one foot while itching had a tiny cut which bled a lot – by which I mean the blood pooled in the middle of my foot and was dripping down the side and I had to use a tissue two different times to dab it to make it stop. I wasn’t sure if this was a good or bad sign of healing, but incidentally, tonight was the first night that I took my socks off and did not need to itch at all.
6/7/24
realized today, while taking care of baby that he’s at this stage where when he wants me and is calling for me, if I don’t immediately drop what I’m doing, he’ll make a racket and not have it and kind of raise hell if I don’t; but other times, I’ll ask him to wait, and he’ll just be like, “OK” and walk away. And there’s kind of no telling which reaction it’ll be – it seems random.
thought this to myself like three different times today: “if I’m ever just not in bodily pain again, I’ll be happy. I don’t care what circumstances I’m in, if I’m poor, or everything else is falling apart – if I’m just not in pain, I’ll be happy. i promise.” like as long as my body is whole and works, i feel like i couldn’t ask for anything more.
6/9/24
I noticed in my Allergy Plus app that in the past like two days, the tree pollen count that I’m allergic to is so low that it’s not even on the map anymore and it’s just grass pollen now, which I’m not allergic to (only ragweed, which is low). So we’ll see if maybe this change affects my skin? i also just stopped the Allergena drops (because i’d already used up half of the two-ounce bottle, every day taking it as directed, and saw no improvement) and started Allegiemittel tablets…but maybe nothing really makes a difference, except the pollen count outside?
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