9/19/23
“..that the way of the faithful is committing to pay the price, even if the cost cannot be known. and trusting that in the end, it will be worth it.” -the rings of power, s1, e8
it hurts so much. after i woke up this morning and scratched my neck, it hurt all day, until nighttime.
9/20/23
something funny Baby does: I don’t know why, but he doesn’t say vampire. He only says “grampire”
9/21/23
sex last night (condoms always now- but was feeling so good at the beginning that I was contemplating not using any -was in my mind rationalizing that I had just finished my period so it was safe, but in reality, I shouldn’t have because I have not firmly established my cycle again, and I’m glad R did not let us. if not for him, I might have done it without)
last three or four days, skipped heavy workout. This was because I got my real period, complete with gushing and lots of blood and everything that accompanies a real one I think. So I was not feeling like jumping around. But today it is pretty much over, and I resumed again, slowly, taking my time. Felt good.
Hunter recently started saying “I love you” to us. It’s really cute, so cute. It like instantly melts my heart every time he does it.
skin still hurting and itchy. If I had to choose between is it better or worse, I would say better, but not much. There’s still inflammation. Just recently switched to a grain-free diet (suggested by the functional med doctor), which is hard because it excludes a lot more than gluten-free does. Like no corn or rice or oats, which I ate so much of before (didn’t realize how much til i cut it out). Also eliminated dairy, egg and soy for now, as directed by the doc. The first few weeks of adjusting diet were frustrating, but now I can say that I’m actually pleased with the change because it’s introduced/forced me to foods and products that I wouldn’t normally eat- some of which I really like and would keep eating (miracle noodles, snack mates chicken sticks and other meat jerkys, Seven Sundays sunflower cereal…) no matter what my diet is. so as a result I feel like this “restriction” has actually expanded my diet.
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