5/22/22
today while driving Hunter and I to her house, mom said wow is that a bunch of new hair growing? when she looked at me in the rearview. i thought it was probably just a knot or cowlick thing from not pulling my ponytail back properly, but when i got to her house i looked in the mirror and it did seem to be a bunch of new baby hairs growing out the top of my head 🙂 and the hair shedding has stopped for a while now.
5/24/22
just realized it might be more a responsibility having a son than a daughter. I have to raise him into a man who would never rape, kill, force, coerce, etc. AND who recognizes these acts as wrong in others. how do I convey this best? Like, the responsibility to protect others’ daughters from him – it falls on my shoulders. Like I am up against the macho bravado glorified aggressive/violent standard of a man that the media teaches – I am up against that. why would he listen to me over all of them?
i think time means nothing to babies/kids. hunter has been alternately breastfeeding and falling asleep for 3 hours straight now (5:00-8:10 pm)
at least i still have bladder control- he just kicked me right in my full bladder while nursing, and nothing came out when i held it in. i hear women talk about losing this control. But i think it’s more likely if you had like two kids or more.
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