angel spirits revealing themselves (week thirty-seven)

8/15/21

first time I had this thought in all my years of online shopping and 39 years on this earth: “maybe the person is being slow to ship because my last name is asian.” (*edit 8/22: turned out that wasn’t the reason: it was because they hadn’t picked up any mail at her husband’s work this week, she sent me a nice message)

Lately (like within the past two weeks, including today), like two or three times already, I’ve seen white flashes at the corner of my eyes – in like peripheral vision. idk if I should get my eyes checked or if they’re angel spirits revealing themselves to me for a moment, because that’s kind of what it looks like. it looks like a flash of white wing with a streak of red or purple. once was at night in R’s room when we were going to bed, once today just sitting at computer in my room alone, and I think another time in my room alone….this never happened to me before.

8/16/21

have been feeling a little different lately, but hard to describe. A little more ants-in-pants-y, restless. I like doing physical hands-on chores like folding laundry; it unsettles me to sit reading for too long (even tho there’s so much I wanna read) or sit watching tv for too long or sit anywhere for too long; I just suddenly need to stand up and move or use bathroom. and I noticed I’ve been swaying more – swaying and rocking my body, my hips while standing, while leaning.

8/18/21

tonight, going to bed, I got a little heartburn and it gave me an idea. I said to Rodrigo, “can’t I just barf him up?” (meaning the baby) And R thought for a moment and said, “I think that might hurt even more.”