prosperity

11/15/20— my two best moments today: when the strong wind blew some stuff off a table at the flea market and R bent down to help pick them up off the gravelly ground as he passed and place them back on the table. The vendor lady thanked him. And later in the day grocery shopping, he saw some bacon he liked, but said he wanted to find some more humanely-raised bacon, he thought they were those options somewhere else in the store. And he did find them later and put that in the cart. both times i didn’t say anything, just kept holding his hand and walking along, but they really touched my heart.

11/17/20

“They tried to bury us. They didn’t know we were seeds.”

– Mexican proverb on Tim Ferris post https://tim.blog/2015/05/06/how-to-commit-suicide/

11/19/20—Just realized something about aging/time: things you never thought would happen to your perfect young body – happen.

what if…every morning, every day…you got up/thought as/washed face as/got dressed as/took walk /did chores/etc. as if…as if about to receive a gift. Expectant, confidently expectant. Since I heard this metaphor in Joseph Murphy’s book  (something w/”prosper” in the title I think), it’s been circling and circling round in my mind, I really like the idea: he says that you can go to the ocean with just a drinking glass and walk away with that much – you can go to the ocean with a gallon jug and walk away with that much and so on – but the point is that there is infinite amount to be given, and everyone gets according to their openness to receiving. I think that’s beautiful. Like, so beautiful. As soon as I heard this, I believed it. I feel like idk. Like I’ve already lived some of it.