11/2/20— “a hopeful break with the past.” –Kempis ‘Ghani’ Songster, To Defund or Not To Defund, https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/move-it-forward/id1532219362
“we can go through any point in our history and point to what was ‘utopian,’ and then became reality.” – https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/move-it-forward/id1532219362
11/3/20— tonight in bed putting R to sleep, I touched his dick with his shorts still on and gently squeezed and its resting shape just extra-delighted me for some reason so that I grinned and said to him happily like, “I’m so glad I have a husband and I can grab his dick whenever I want, and I don’t have to go on dates to grab a dick” and we laughed and he said he feels the same way about me.
11/5/20—“the body believes in images. the body will receive an image as if it’s a physical event.” – Robert Moss on dreaming
11/7/20— watching R nap on the couch tonight, this phrase came into my head: “easiest person to love in the world.” Just the easiest. I was walking past him earlier tonight when he was making us dinner (plant-based burgers), and as I passed he asked if I wanted cheese on my burger (I said nah, cause I didn’t feel that hungry) and with the funniest lilt in his voice he responded, “Why not?” It was in this sad, drawn-out, puppy-dog, pleading tone of voice that he said “why not”. I immediately stopped, backtracked and went into the kitchen and pretend-slapped him and said, “Stop being so cute!!” and we were laughing. Sometimes he acts so cute that I feel almost like frustrated with life.
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