10/16/23
Took a pregnancy test – it was negative – this morning, just to rule out that the recent, relatively drastic, positive change in skin was not due to pregnancy. was so glad that it was negative- that means that I’m actually doing something(s) right, maybe.
noticed my teeth have been feeling weaker lately, like the last week or two. I was wondering if it’s because I’m not consuming any dairy anymore.
Hunter nursed exactly one time this week. He was at my parents the whole workweek, then we had him for the weekend and he didn’t nurse til just tonight, when I went to bed with him. If I hadn’t put him to bed and Rodrigo had, I think he would not have nursed once this whole week. So now, I’m just thinking that every time now, this could be our last time.
I guess I spoke too soon about my egg reaction, because tonight my face itched and it was a little raised during, and it felt close to weeping, but it didn’t. But I consider that a bad reaction, because everything else is/was getting better. It seems like all the reactions happen the night of the second day, so far. (update 10/22 – this same rxn seemed to happen after I introduced grains back- on my face as well, and on the night of both the first and second days- but not as intense, so I’m not sure. Really unsure – what if it was not grains, and something else? – yesterday i stayed for hours at my s-in-law’s who uses artificial plug-in scents, stayed in my dusty room at parents’ last night- i think I have to put grains to the back of the queue as well, and re-introduce a second time. ideally when i can control all other environmental, diet, etc. factors so i can be more sure)
I just want my face to clear up before Hunter’s old enough to remember me this way. I want him to remember that I had a nice face, not a messed up one.
Today, felt PMS mood. Felt intolerant and a little edgy, anxious and stressed while in ShopRite and also while at a fun place (jurassic land) with Baby.
10/17/23
Just wanna note that right before I got my period today, a few days ago, I did get and feel very strongly the PMS mood change that I usually get, and also the strong chocolate craving- I had that yesterday. And a little today. My face getting a little worse did coincide with getting my period- i guess I want to note that- but I don’t suspect it is FROM my period, I think it is from adding eggs back. But will try again, just in case. Cause they did coincide. I guess the next time I should avoid adding anything back around the time I will get my period, just to rule out that hormonal change being the cause of anything.
10/18/23
like the last two days- this morning and yesterday- again was dreading waking up, because face got a little worse, and didn’t want to get up because it hurts more when I stand up. But I think it’s still not as bad as it was, when I was in the throes of it a month or so ago.
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