1/8/23
Felt something like PMS yesterday. Didn’t realize it til nighttime when I was crying before sleep and it hit me that that was the 3rd time I cried that day. The first was in the bath, second was while nursing, and third was while trying to go to sleep after a hard day (really late at night and felt emotionally out of control to a point I haven’t felt…I guess since my last PMS over a year ago). Got suddenly very angry at R before my bath for not taking the trash out like I’d asked, and was kind of throwing things around the house while cleaning up. The epsom salt had formed big clumps inside its plastic bag, and normally I would take them out and crush them with my hands over the bathwater, but yesterday was so frustrated that it felt good to bang the entire bag against the side of the bathtub, loudly over and over, until they were all fine grains again.
1/10/23
Got period back – for the first time in two years. Amazed at how body really reacts to/is in tune with my environment/what’s happening around me – i know i only got it back bc I’ve just recently started sleeping for longer stretches (and that it only stayed away bc i was breastfeeding so constantly and through the night before).
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