Growing so fast

7/26/22

Tonight while adjusting the light blanket on him, I grabbed a handful of where I thought his foot would not be – but his foot was there! I totally misjudged his length and grabbed a handful of his foot lol. Even tho I see him every day, he’s taller than I thought. So much happening inside of him, daily, that I just do not see. Growing…so much, so fast.

7/27/22

two annoying things he does while breastfeeding, is that he’ll poke his little finger inside my belly button, poke poke poke, and it’s uncomfortable and I either hold his hand or have to keep swatting his fingers away because he won’t stop. other thing is he will pinch my other nipple and twist it. Luckily I got Silverettes, these hard silver things that go over your nipples that you wear inside your bra, and that protects me from this, when i’m wearing them, so most of the time. Other than that, and the biting still, the breast-feeding is going well. I can’t believe in approximately one more month, it will be one year of it.

I always loved how intuitive R was, and I guess it’s no different with the baby. He will frequently guess or seem to know what the baby wants, even though he can’t talk yet, inferring just by his eyes or pointing and body language I guess. It seems to come more naturally to him- knowing what the baby wants- than to me.

just read in one of the nursing books I’m reading that my prescription steroid, bethametasone, hasn’t been proven safe to use while breast-feeding so I stopped using it and started hydrocortisone in its place, which it said was safe. but now I’m in a kind of purgatory where it’s not healing (it’s on the tops of my feet), maybe because it’a not as strong, but it’s not super bad either: I’m just really uncomfortable every day and it made me realize how much more of a layer of stress my skin problems put on things that are already stressful. I keep thinking that if my skin problems just went away, I would be able to handle the other problems in my life much better.