Shanah Tovah

9/14/20

I feel really lucky every time me and R go grocery shopping together (which is weekly or maybe every 2 weeks). it’s really nice to have a companion during this and discuss what you want and squeeze each other while shopping and stuff. I shopped alone for a little bit when I was living in Philly and Boo was gone to the cruise ship I think, and it was lonely for me. I know I’m all for being independent and being able to do anything alone—which I CAN do anything alone—but grocery shopping might be like #1 on my list of things I’d rather not do alone, bc it’s just so much better with someone.

9/15/20

realized something tonight while going into sex with R: that this time- sex- is not for thinking, not for judging if he’s deserving of it or techniques or even words or anything like that. It’s the time for totally letting go and not thinking, because all the other hours outside of this has been used for that (judging, critical thinking, decision making, logical thinking, etc). Now is the time to let consciousness & worries go and just be in wordless, thoughtless love with your husband- this guy that it took you two/three years to judge and finally choose. You have to be able to let go during sex, to stop thinking just for a while. It won’t be forever—you can go back to your default overthinking afterwards if you want—but what this time is for is sacred-it’s something that should be SEPARATE from what you usually do—separate from the mundane or usual. And I tried out this theory as soon as I realized it (as we were starting), and it worked. It made me more relaxed. And I came really hard. But i think this frame of mind during sex is like a skill or a habit for me, in that I don’t default naturally to this; I have to train myself to, consciously.

“we must beware of compulsively imitating our ancestors’ and our cultures’ shortcomings” – 9/14/20 Anima Mundi email

• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth
• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth
• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth
• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth
• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth
• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth
• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth
• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth
• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth
• Practice welcoming obstacles as opportunities for growth

 – 9/14/20 Anima Mundi email (repetition done by me, they only had this bullet point once)

9/16/20

O God, wherever I am weak, make him strong.

And make me strong – wherever he is weak. Let us be the perfect team. Amen.

9/18/20

“problems are life‘s way of asking you for an answer. The greatest joy and satisfaction is in overcoming.”

“you meet with night and day, cold and heat, ebb and flow, summer and winter, hope and despair, and success and failure. You find yourself moving through opposites. through your power to imagine what you wish to feel, is to reconcile the opposites and bring peace to the mind.”

– joseph murphy

9/19/20

started a new rule for my thoughts today (which hopefully becomes a habit and I can stop having to strain to do):

do not let anything cross your mind that does not bless, strengthen, delight, and inspire you. anything—not one thing.

– paraphrased from joseph murphy’s book, Believe in Yourself