9/9/20
12. protect the alone time you need. protect yourself.
13. deal with your superficial/skin insecurities. No one can deal with them, only you can.
9/11/20
I was thinking: maybe what keeps you young is constantly passing through different worlds (and this usually involves some form of pain or shock). What made me think this: last night, Googling “beautiful old asian women” to send to my mom for inspiration bc she mentioned to me yesterday (and it seemed a little sadly) that ‘one can’t be beautiful when they get old and she accepts that’, while googling examples/role models, came across a story of this 50+ year old asian lady who gets mistaken for like twenties/her son’s girlfriend, and she does look hot from the pics, and was reading how she believed it was due to her many years (I think 30+ years?) of swimming in cold water (she works out in winter and plunges into ocean and lake for swims regularly when it’s cold out). Then this morning when I was running, was thinking about how even just running around this field is kind of another world compared to the inside of the house, and was glad I got outside, then thought of the lady I read about last night, and then thought of babies—how they are plunged from the dark warmth of womb into earth/light/here, and how big a transition that is—how passing through different worlds that is, and how cute and obviously haha young they look (as a result of that major transition?). I was thinking maybe it’s the like…it’s the transitions of life that…keep body/mind/spirit young. That it’s good to go through physical (like polar bear swims) and mental (like overhaul of personal philosophies) transitions. To face pain and shock and transitions with bravery, love, and faith – if you’re able to – IS life force, I think. And maybe this also includes the small transitions, from stepping off the train and up the stairs into the city, to getting out of bed in the morning.
9/13/20
“someone to love and relish and liberate” – Jose Padua
what does liberating someone entail? what are the elements? what are the steps?
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