7/17/20
How can you really in your heart only be true and faithful and love one person the most, and not just profess or perform this monogamy of heart? Is it simply just that they must be the best that you’ve ever known? Or is something else a factor, like it’s a practice or discipline? or is the biggest factor out of your control?
I want to have this singleness of spirit, this oneness of mind that doesn’t stray.
7/19/20
I was thinking something I really like about R that started ever since I met him: he’s like, taking me on a tour of my own country. With him, I see places that I never would have visited alone, I think. Just because he is interested and curious about everything, and also just cause I go out more with him on dates than I would if single, and also just like taking different ways home/to get places and getting lost/meandering on the way there/back, we accidentally discover new places/towns/roads, too. I really like it. It reminds me of I think one of the movies in the Before Sunrise trilogy, how she mentioned she never saw some nice place in France because she had lived there all her life and considered it touristy, but realized when she went with him (an American), that her home city was really beautiful.
7/20/20
Every night I rub R’s back as he’s falling asleep and I usually say the same prayer i started saying since right before we got married (may my husband be the most blessed man in all the world). But tonight as I was rubbing his back I felt different words rise up in me. They went:
please give me the strength to never fail him. the strength and the wisdom. and no matter what he ever does, no matter what happens to us, let me never fail him.
so I prayed it as it came, and I meant it.
7/21/20
“…values only exist if they are lived. You may think you value your health. But until you live healthily, you don’t. You may think you value honest communication and open discourse. But until you’ve weathered the unpleasant and difficult conversations that you hate hearing, you don’t. You may think you value being selfless and charitable. But until you’ve pulled out that checkbook and volunteered your time to others, you kinda don’t.” –Mark Manson
7/24/20
“I was inspired to get in trouble—good trouble. Necessary trouble.” – Congressman John Lewis
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