spoiled

11/14/25

 I feel a little sad about: because of the breakdown incident where we had to get our rig fixed and postpone a campsite reservation, we missed two days of our stay at Green Mountain campsite and had to leave literally the next morning after arriving that night. also a little stressful because we didn’t get to settle in or relax because we knew we were leaving the next day. we didn’t get to visit the playground, which is usually one of the first things we do upon arrival, which shows how time crunched we were there. Have visited every playground of every campsite we’ve stayed at since the beginning, except now that one. And later also found out that there was some mountain or park that was one of North Carolina’s main attractions, that was close by there. And our park had all kinds of hiking trails, that we had no time to see or hike. we couldn’t really change our schedule because our next like five places were already reserved and planned out, so if we messed with this stay, the rest of the stays would get messed up and we couldn’t be sure if there would be sites still available to reserve, so we had to keep going. (also the park was only open for 1 more day so an extension wouldn’t have mattered much)

11/15/25

today was really relaxing, and the weather was so beautiful. We’re in South Carolina now, and when I woke up, I thought it would be cold, but it then progressed to being in the 70s and I had to actually wear a tank top for the rest of the day or else I would’ve started sweating. It was beautiful and sunny and perfect, and we took a lot of walks in the woods surrounding our campsite. Moving again tomorrow, i think to AL. 

there was a moment today. Hunter is still drawn to my bare belly whenever he sees it, and he sometimes tries to lift up my shirt to see it and squeeze it. So today the moment was, he had his mouth on it, and was also squeezing it with his little hand, and it reminded me of when he would squeeze my boob while breastfeeding, and looking down at him doing that, it made my heart feel soft and tender, and felt a bit bittersweet. 

11/16/25

Have started going to sleep earlier, which im beyond glad about – it’s been so long. it’s because feet are getting better so it is taking less time to soothe before bed, so I will just soothe for maybe an hour or so and it’s done, so I’m going to bed around 1 AM instead of 3 or later, unlike the past 7 months before. there’s still the occasional later night, but this earlier sleeping in general is allowing me to wake up earlier, which I’m also glad about, to be getting back to a normal schedule, so I can get back to being synced up with my work hours, instead of fighting them.

today it was almost oppressively hot out, and I wondered if I would have to get out my summer clothes that I had put away – if it’s gonna get hotter the further south and west we go, even though it’s winter now.

we’ve been on the road for a while, so to entertain Hunter, I asked him what his favorite pie was- “apple pie? Blueberry pie? Cherry pie?” he answered “Guacamelon pie.” he likes to say anything that will make himself or us laugh.

11/17/25

we’re in Alabama today. it’s the second or like third day of our trip that the sun felt too strong. I can’t believe it’s mid November, and it feels like summer. it’s nice I guess, nicer than being too cold. But it’s also really hot sometimes lol.  it’s also really dusty at the campsite we’ve just arrived; I can see dust clouds behind every vehicle that drives by down the rocky gravel paths.

11/18/25

I feel like it just took like 30 days off of my life to get Hunter dressed again after he took a shower. It’s like this a lot, because it involves moisturizing him and combing his hair and getting his clothes on, all while he is losing his mind screaming his head off and running away from me naked and laughing hysterically. It takes like an hour. it’s pretty much the main reason why I like never suggest that he needs a shower, unless I feel somewhat mentally prepared. So today, I realized it had been a while since he had a shower, and he was sweaty, so I said it, and steeled myself, and just did it. R did the other hard part, actually showering him, and I did the after shower stuff.

Lately, have been feeling things are much better between R and I. It started with a pretty simple thing: we both finally had a minute to ourselves, so we lay down next to each other, and there was silence for a little bit, and then I started with, “I’m sorry if I snap at you sometimes…” which lead to him apologizing for snapping sometimes too (his are fewer and farther between than mine), and this lead to me trying explaining it’s just sometimes I get so stressed that i do it, and he said him too, which lead to us both telling the other we would try to stop doing it. It just kind of cleared the air, and made us realize there wasn’t that big a deal between us, and ever since, i’ve felt the vibrations become more loving and soft and understanding, which is really nice. 

tonight was the first night in what feels like two months that I haven’t needed to use the heating pad on my back while soothing, because it’s so hot down here in Alabama. 

11/23/25

“your eye looks like a firefighter helmet.” -Hunter randomly said to me this morning as we were looking at each other, cuddling in bed.

i’ve been realizing how spoiled we were grocery-store-wise back where we lived in south jersey. I could get organic anywhere, and close by: Sprouts, MOMs, Whole Foods, even ShopRite, Acme. not to mention the delivery services: Instacart, daily harvest, imperfect foods. Now, where we’ve traveled in the south recently, there’s mostly just like Dollar Generals, and grocery stores i’ve never heard of like Foodland and Food Lion that don’t have any organic or hardly any – maybe just the apples. No grocery delivery obviously, because our schedule is so erratic and many parks don’t allow deliveries. it’s like a gold mine for me when we find a good food store. Aldi is not too bad, not my favorite. I hate going into big Walmarts, but it helps when we find one because they have a good og selection usually. yesterday had to drive 35 minutes to one, because that’s the nearest one to where we are now in AL.