can fall asleep at will

1/31/25

that’s cool how everyone’s hair turns the same color in the end. like we’re all headed for the same place.

had a day today where i actually had time. like to do stuff i wanted, and wasn’t rushing before it was all over. it felt good, but also not normal – like very weird and abnormal. which i guess, having time to myself is abnormal these days, compared to the last 3+ years.

2/2/25

I know life doesn’t work like this, but what if: everyone on earth, including politicians, at random unappointed times, will switch bodies with someone else in the world, including the lowliest. Like if Elon Musk could very possibly become a child in Gaza for a day. If life worked like this, there would be no Elon Musk, and there would be no children suffering to the extent they are in Gaza- this severe disparity of the ultra rich just focused on their own fun and also innocent children suffering without world leaders caring would not exist, because everyone would always be looking out for each other, because everyone would technically BE each other. All our policies and laws would reflect that.

2/9/25

The other night, Hunter said in bed, “i love you mommy, but you stink” right after he heard me fart. Then almost immediately after this, I started stroking his forehead and he fell asleep in about ten seconds. 

Then tonight, he seemed rowdy and noisy in bed, but then i said, “let’s go to sleep now, so you won’t be cranky when you have to wake up early tomorrow.” he was just like “ok”, curled up touching my shoulder, closed his eyes and fell asleep in like twenty seconds without me doing anything (usually he falls asleep to me telling stories).