hunter’s 1st kiss

3/22/24

it’s so funny how kids won’t eat things unless they’re in pretty shapes, attractive colors.  Like they’re born artists, already.

3/25/24

Hunter had his first kiss this weekend, at the Lindenwold playground. We were there with granny and grandpa, and were the only ones cause it was pretty cold out, but then this father came with his son (maybe 4-5 y/o? named Bryan or Ryan maybe? they spoke Spanish) and daughter – she couldn’t have been more than 1 yr- was waggly walking and non-verbal. She was really cute and round and shorter than Hunter and dressed all in pink- fuzzy pink sweatshirt with matching pink sweatpants. First she just stood and stared at Hunter when she first saw him riding in the play police car. Then wherever we were, she kind of followed us, and if Hunter stood still, she would walk towards him. At one point on the way up to the biggest slide, Hunter was just standing and she walked right up to him and reached for him/his face and just very intentionally pressed her open baby mouth to his face lol. i don’t think it was right on the lips, but pretty close. hahaha

i told R this and R was like wow, first kiss at 2! That’s better than me. I was like when was yours? R said like at 6, and thinks his mom kept the letters from the girl – apparently she used to write him letters 🙂

after taking care of Hunter for three days and two nights, with me and R sleeping apart at night (the bed situation in limbo right now- we can’t all fit in the same bed when Hunter goes to sleep- it’s a twin sz bunk- so it’s either R or I who sleeps with him, but not both) and then, being kind of physically apart during the days because we can’t cuddle much while taking care of the baby who wants all our attention, when we got home after dropping him off at my mom’s last night, we just cuddled and cuddled and stuff for so long that, even though we both had to work tomorrow (with him needing to get up much earlier than me, as usual), we stayed on the couch just entwined until about 1:30 in the morning. I knew it was getting late, but it just felt good to finally have his body against me that I couldn’t make myself get up and go to sleep at the hour i really should have. (got a “small” herpeticum outbreak later in the week around Wednesday- i’m sure this contributed)

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so annoyed when they treat objects as living things. That item I left in my cart is not “waiting for me.” meanwhile, I’d argue that the very ground beneath our feet, the air, the forest around us *is* waiting for us to do something. But that cannot be monetized so no one says it.

3/30/24

just while we were hanging out in the living room this afternoon doing no related thing, Hunter suddenly, randomly said, “if you eat a Jack Skeleton head, you become Jack Skeleton”

3/31/24

Hunter can convey basically anything now.  he can’t like write a detailed novel, but he can say, it seems,  anything he’s thinking, and we can mostly understand it all. He says so many things, observes, and remembers so much. It’s amazing and hard to just summarize. 

skin definitely getting better, but slowly. I’m sure it’s because I’ve super cut out dairy and egg, along with making sure I’m strict gluten-free and stuff. getting good-sourced meat and reducing sugar, eating variety of organic veggies. plus supplements, plus prioritizing sleep, plus getting in exercise when i can, and everything that was inflamed before (hands and feet mostly) is starting to go down to normal again. i guess i just need to make all this somehow sustainable, because i just proved to myself over these past months that if i stray from these principles, my body starts to break down. this Easter was a bit hard with all the treats that got brought over. One of my sisters in law brought these delicious-looking filled chocolate eggs that I really wanted to try since seeing them last night but knew that I shouldn’t (sugar, milk), and I kept looking at them on the counter, and finally today just angrily and frustratedly-sadly turned the box over so i couldn’t see them anymore through the see-through plastic on front (R’s eating them).