noticing the flowers

9/19/22

today drove on my own, for the first time in a long time (since the birth i’ve mostly been driven around by R or my parents) with baby in the backseat to parents’ house. He cried like the whole time and didn’t fall asleep. mom said later that i have to talk to him the whole time and ask him questions (like a crazy person, because he’s not really going to answer). but if that’s what it takes to keep him from crying, I’ll do it.

9/20/22

weeks are passing like days. That’s how fast they feel. 

9/23/22

when i saw him this morning, he looked even bigger and taller than yesterday, and when i held his hands they felt as if they grew more overnight, too. 

9/25/22

yesterday noticed him noticing for the first time, the flowers i have hanging near the ceiling in my bedroom. he was looking up and all around, with a look of wonder. it’s cool to see his field of vision expanding more every day.