4/6/22
this week started sleeping some nights without the nightlight, because not so afraid anymore that he will suffocate – he’s stronger now and flips and rolls- do not need to look at his face every second at night.
4/7/22
realized he keeps hitting his face on my collarbone when I’m holding him now because he’s so squirmy, so when I hold him I have to hunch my shoulders really forward a lot, so that he hits them instead of my hard collarbone.
he started whispering to himself a lot, single syllable sounds, even when he just wakes up, it’s really cute. also he’s trying to stand up all the time; gets a kick out of climbing up to a standing position in his crib and then making noises to get me to look, and when I look, he is grinning. In the living room, pulling himself up using the sofa sides to stand and watch tv.
really stressful now to try and change him, like his diaper, because he’s twisting and turning everywhere. The other day, in the morning after like 10-15 minutes of trying to change him, after I was done, I just cried, it was too much.
today so tired that my head rushes when I stand up from a squatting position, and my balance is so off – tripping over myself just trying to put my slippers on.
4/8/22
There is this vocal, sweet tiny sigh that Hunter does sometimes, only when we’re nursing in bed at night and he’s almost falling asleep, that sounds like he’s so content. I don’t want to think about it too much or even write about it, bc I know if I write about it and then read it in the future after forgetting, I’ll feel a pang in my heart thinking how I’ll never be in that moment and never hear that sigh again. it sounds like a sound that only a young baby can make.
4/9/22
yesterday I think saw a tiny bit of tooth coming through, from the bottom. He has been extra fussy during night wakings lately, like waking up crying really loud – he usually doesn’t do that. I’ve been rubbing the Mommy’s Bliss gum gel on his gums when they seem to be bothering him (i can only guess), hoping it helps.
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