3/24/22
if he stayed a baby, i feel like i could be happy sleeping with him forever. even if he still woke me up during the night to eat. and now, after all my complaining: maybe BECAUSE he woke me up to eat. That he needed me like that – in a way no one else ever needed my body.
this week, he started, in bed, rolling onto his stomach on his own to sleep.
Also lately, I’ve been feeling like I have a little more energy during the day. I don’t think he’s waking up less during the night, so it must be either I’m getting used to the routine more (like my body is getting used to less sleep?), or maybe it’s the weather, getting warmer.
3/25/22
realizing: what all nighters really are
and that if u don’t put any makeup on during the day, you can skip washing face at night- both of which save a few precious minutes
3/26/22
ever since he started getting stronger, like able to sit up by himself and hold his head up and flip and crawl and everything, I feel better about leaving him in the bed sleeping when i go do a quick chore. Before i would have a worried sick feeling in my gut. But now I feel a lot less worried. I feel like if he kicked a blanket over his head, he could easily shake it off now. before, he was so helpless.
3/27/22
today had one of the easiest days w baby I can remember. R stayed home w us and it was a really happy peaceful time; he was playing and smiling a lot and the tv shows (cocomelon & badanamu) entertained him for a relatively long time; and when we ate dinner I put him in his high chair and spread goat cheese puffs (at his 6-mo. appt, doc said he could eat puffs now, i was really surprised, thought he had to have teeth for those) on the tray and he went at it- they got everywhere, but he ate some too, while me and R ate our pizza. I commented, “wow. I can’t believe we’re actually sitting down eating a meal together.” bc me and R had to take ‘shifts’ eating before, to watch baby. this was the first time pretty much that me, R, and baby all ate together.
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