12/20/21
I kind of just realized that after you have a baby, you have to accept that your life will basically be at a standstill, in a way, for maybe a year, or two, or more? I think I didn’t realize that before- I was trying to keep up the pace I had with doing things like normal, pre-baby. But everything changes. It’s all like, upheaved.
12/22/21
if you’re not there for the scream-crying, you also will not be there for the next minute when he goes limp and falls asleep on you, leaning all his heavy angel body weight against yours. That you can’t have the high points without the low I guess applies to…everything.
12/23/21
he’s so wiggly now. once he wiggled out of my hold but i reached out and caught his head mid- air. another time he wiggled and fell too fast for me to catch, he landed on the back of his head, he looked stunned and i felt so bad but then smiled at me right after and it seemed no biggie to him, and also the surface he landed was his changing table, which is a firm pad.
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